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Friday, May 16, 2008

Taste Of Summer - Part One

We finally had a decent day here in the "Michiana" area. The timing was perfect since I went and bought flowers to plant in our yard, and that is always a more fun time when the sun is out and it is warm. I'm always excited to get the flowers and see all the fresh life and beauty. I also am grateful to God for creating perennial flowers. It's fun to have these wonderful plants come up year after year. One of my favorites is the bleeding heart. They bloom early and get you ready for summer. They don't last very long, but they are hardy plants. The ones in this picture came up after I had dug up the plants and moved them to a different spot.

Usually I buy geraniums for my whiskey barrel, but this year I saw these great gerbera daisies and I loved the colors.

I bought this "hen and chicks" plant. Supposedly, it will produce a lot of offshoots. I just thought it looked cool!

One day a few years ago, I was at my sister Chris' house, and she had a plant she wanted to give me. So she went into a random shed on their farm and came out with this cast iron pot. She transplanted the flower into and sent it home with me. This pot always reminds me of that day, and how cool it was to have a random shed to pull a unique pot out of, and how sweet it was that my sister did it for me.

I also opted for zinnias around our lamp post, instead of my standard petunias.

Monday, May 12, 2008

Keep Praying

We got a little bit of news last week from Guatemala. It's hard sometimes to update people because there are so many different things and details, but I'll try to just sum up everything. We're encouraged that Guatemala is working on getting a new process in place. We're also encouraged that they appear to be developing more children's services in their country on a whole. The time frame for the new process being in place is still far out. Also, the adoption law right now states that only the government can place children, not children's homes. We would like to see that changed so that the children's homes can continue to function, and we have desired all along for our daughter's mother to live at the promise of life house and our daughter to live at Hannah's Hope and be referred to us from that program. So, it's encouraging to see stuff happening, but there is still plenty to keep praying about. Thanks to all of you who continue to remember us while we "be still and know that He is God".

Monday, May 5, 2008

Random Thoughts Vol. 9

Welcome again to random thoughts, a post filled with a string of thoughts that really don't have anything to do with each other, or any sort of significance on a whole. I'm excited that we only have 13 days of school left before summer vacation. Needless to say the kids are excited about that as well. Now that better weather has come to Indiana (at least for today, you know how the weather is here!), it's especially hard to keep doing our school work.

I haven't commented on American Idol for a while. Since David Cook and Jason are my favorites, I've been pretty happy. I wish Carly was the last girl standing instead of Syesha, but that's a personal preference. I think it would be more interesting to have her and Michael Johns still in at this point versus Little David and Syesha, but whatever. I was disappointed in Neil Diamond night, because I love Neil Diamond. But maybe that's the problem: there's only one Neil. But you know, there are 2 kinds of people in this world - those who love Neil Diamond and those who don't. Anyone know what movie that quote is from?

For those of you LOST watchers, I read a theory on EW.com after last week's episode that I think blows my mind. That theory is: Claire is a ghost. Discuss! All I can say, is this show both confounds and entertains me. The only bad thing about summer - no new LOST. Or American Idol. Or Survivor. Or The Office. Maybe ABC will run another season of Will Traveler, like last summer. Did anyone catch that? Or how about they restart the beautiful tradition of the Battle of the Network Stars? I used to LIVE for when that was on - that and Circus of the Stars. Here's a taste of Battle of the Network Stars, 1980. Go Chachi!

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Nine Is Fine

My baby girl is nine. I find it hard to believe. Yes, I shed tears over it, but I'm fine. It's neat to get to know her and see who she is becoming. I truly enjoy her and her company, and I'm incredibly proud of her. We had a "Pink Poodle Paris" party, and it was very fun. We went to Hacienda with Grandpa and Grandma Morehouse before coming back home for presents and cake. Madison was thrilled when they sang to her at Hacienda! She beamed! We had a wonderful time celebrating Madison and her big day.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Things That Make Me Laugh

I thought I would share some things that make me laugh in hopes to spread the laughter. The first is a montage from America's Funniest Home Videos. This is one of our favorite shows, and I saw this clip when it aired, but my friend Karen recently emailed the link and I've been enjoying watching it over and over.

Last night Saturday Night Live's Best of Chris Farley was on NBC. I've seen this many times, and it always makes me laugh. I was looking for a video of when he does Bennet Brower on weekend update (you know, the guy who air quotes things like, "eat my own dandruff"), but I couldn't find one. I tried finding other Farley videos, but apparantly everyone posting on YouTube feels the need to make a tribute to Farley with sappy music OR EVEN WORSE post videos of themselves doing Chris' sketches. Anyhow, instead of a funny Farley video, I'll post a funny Will Ferrel video that enables me to laugh every time I hear a cowbell.

Finally, I'm sharing a clip from a Japanese game show that I which would catch on here in America. I love Human Tetris!

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Milestones

We've had a couple of exciting milestones be reached recently. MAX is actually talking at his language class as much as he does at home, which is very helpful to his therapist. He's also just becoming more and more independent, and he rides a "big bike" now instead of a tricycle. His milestones are small, but fun nonetheless. MICHAEL decided last weekend to take the training wheels off of his bike, and without much trouble, now rides without them. Pretty exciting since my goal for him was to do it by the end of summer. But the biggest milestone of all has to do with MADISON. Today we found out that after 6 1/2 years of speech and language therapy, she's all done! She won't be needing or receiving speech services next year. We were all so happy, and so grateful. I truly believe that God healed Madison, and enabled her to overcome her delays. I'm so proud of her because she worked soooo hard for soooo long, and always did what she was asked to do and never complained. Great job, Madison! We're all so happy and so proud of you! Praise God!

Friday, April 18, 2008

Our Ground Hog Day

Today is Ground Hog Day at our house, but not in the traditional sense. For us, this means we have trapped the ground hog that has been living under our porch for quite some time now. We borrowed a live trap from my nephew, and Ryan set it up, hoping that before he went to work the ground hog would be in the trap and he could take it out in the country and release it. (CARSONS - we know when you lived here you would take trapped animals to the end of Fulmer Rd, but it's full of town houses now. The ongoing joke between Ryan and I has been that when we caught it, we would take it to your house!)

Alas, it was a beautiful plan, except our friend didn't find himself trapped until about an hour after Ryan left for work. So, since there is NO WAY ON GOD'S GREEN EARTH that I am picking this thing up and putting him in the van and driving him to the country for release, he will spend over 9 hours in the trap. Let me say, he's clawing like crazy trying to get out. He gets an "A" for effort. But, it's pointless. He's just going to wear himself out. I want to tell him to relax, it will all be okay, he's just moving to another home, out in the country, away from our porch (By the way, I have this fear that it will be like a dog, and in a week it will have found its way back home - is anyone schooled in the instincts of the ground hog?)

Leave it to me to find a spiritual lesson in all of this. (I'd call it "Caged Wisdom", but that was already taken by the wonderful tv show "Arrested Development"). I see him fighting his circumstances all day, knowing that his effort will not be enough. And really, his situation isn't as bad as it could have been - we did get a LIVE trap, not a DEATH trap. Plus, he has iceberg lettuce and peanut butter to get him through this time, which is better than the grass I was watching him eat the other day. There are times I have been like a trapped ground hog - clawing and fighting, trying to change a situation that was out of my control. Would I fight so hard if I knew it was going to be different in a little while, I just had to wait this time out? Can I rest knowing that God will, like Ryan will for the ground hog, come and bring release when His timing is ready? I want a faith that is bigger and more mature than a caged animal. I want faith that rests in God's will, and isn't easily shaken by an unexpected change. I don't want to waste energy fighting something beyond my control. I want to embrace where I am, maybe even enjoy the iceberg lettuce, and dream about where I might be when I'm released in that new place God takes me. Thanks, ground hog, for the reminder to rest in God, and don't worry, you'll be in your new home soon.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

American Idol - Rewind

So last night I was watching American Idol Rewind. In case you don't know, this is the syndicated reruns of past seasons. Now they are on season 2, and I saw the episode when it was the top 4 - Ruben, Clay, Kimberley, and Josh. This was my favorite season, simply because they were all such good vocalists, and I would have felt good about any of them winning. It's so weird to watch the older episodes. Simon's hair was very bushy,Paula is so refreshingly lucid, and the stage isn't like a giant spaceship. The performances were all good, with the exception of Clay singing the theme song from Grease (is grease really the way we are feelin'?). One odd thing is that each contestant was to sing 2 BeeGee's songs (yes, you read that correctly), and Clay and Josh each chose the same song. I doubt they would allow something like that now. Anyway, it was interesting to rewatch this past favorite. As for the current idol season, I'm disappointed to see Michael Johns go. He was never my favorite, but I really enjoyed his Dolly Parton performance, and just about any other performance of his more than ANYTHING Syesha has done. So, best wishes, Michael Johns.

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Random Thoughts Vol. 8

Happy Spring Break to those of you partaking! Madison keeps asking me why we are still doing school if it's Spring Break. I keep trying to explain that we took time off to go to Pokagon a couple weeks ago, and that we will finish school earlier if we don't take a break now. But, like most humans, instant gratification sounds more fun.

I've enjoyed having some not-so-busy weekends lately. In fact, this past weekend, I spent on inordinate amount of time on the mental floss website. They have lots of great trivia to read and quizzes to take. I'll warn you, it's addicting.

Yesterday I bought the book Mistaken Identity (pictured above). It's about the Taylor University (of which I am an alumnus) students who were in the car accident, and the bodies where misidentified. I highly recommend it. I read the entire book in about 4 hours last night. The story is fascinating, just because it's so unbelievable. But more than that, the story is absolutely beautiful, and a wonderful testament of grace. I briefly saw the famiies on Oprah, and it's exciting to see them boldly share their faith. May God richly bless them all!

As far as American Idol goes, I was happy to see Ramiele leave. She never impressed me. If only Syesha could have gone with her. It's strange, I don't really like Kristy Lee, yet I want her to stay more than Syesha. I think I just never enjoy Syesha's song choices. I'm not so much looking forward to the inspirational theme tonight, and I probably won't partake in the Idol Gives Back fest - some stories are too heartbreaking. I heard someone predict Little David singing "The Greatest Love of all", which makes me want to urp, but since that's a Whitney classic, Syesha will probably cover it, which will induce full-on vomiting for me.

So, I saw this video and enjoyed a good laugh while watching it. I think I actually figured out how to post it - we'll see! Anyway, my favorite parts are the shopping cart and the "I've done all I can do!" quote. Enjoy!

Friday, April 4, 2008

Resting

Tomorrow it will be one year since we went on the baby girl waiting list. Isn't life funny how things work out sometimes? If I had known then what I know now, I would have been freaking out. Today I'm just resting. I'm resting in my big, powerful God - I'm being still, and just knowing who He is. In my humanness, I'm sad to think a year has passed with nothing to show for it, but in His almighty Godness, He's doing something that takes some time. Time is different for God and me. I'm trying to adapt to His viewpoint. I trying to think eternally instead of temporally. And really, I shouldn't say a year has passed with nothing to show for it, because even though our adoption situation hasn't changed, WE have changed. Ryan and I, and even the kids, have grown so much through all of this. Our faith has expanded, we have a bigger capacity to trust God. We have grown in our ability to "wait on the Lord". We are better individuals, a better couple, and a better family than we were a year ago. We have a deeper love and desire for Jesus and all things of Him than we did a year ago. We are more patient (at least I am - Ryan's always had the patience stuff down!), more at peace, more joyful, more hopeful, more loving, more devoted, and more commited than we were a year ago. Imagine what God will have done with us, and how far He will have brought us, when this whole thing is complete! That's exciting, because as much as I want a baby girl in my home, I even more so want to be God's baby girl, His precious child, who acts in a way that is pleasing to Him, and that brings glory to Him. Thank you, God, for your patience with me. Help me to continue to obediently rest in you!

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

American Idol - Dollywood

I remember one time seeing Dolly Parton interviewed on television and the person asking her if that was her hair. Dolly responded, "You bet it is, I paid for it!!!" How can a person not appreicate that kind of honest wit. I enjoyed Dolly night on American Idol, except I would have loved to have heard more of Dolly talking, because she makes me laugh. Who knew she had written so many songs, and many of them have beautiful lyrics.

So, here are my thoughts: I wish there had been a venue for me to put money down on Syesha singing "I will always love you". I would use it to buy a cricut. I think this song choice may be the death of her. Her only hope is that whoever has been voting for Ramiele realizes they've been misdialing. I wish it was double elimination and they could both go - Syesha for song choice alone. Kristy Lee did a nice job, and at least she's been more interesting to watch than Ramiele. But, her idol days are numbered. At least she can sing "God Bless the USA" on the tour this summer. I will say, I think Kristy Lee is the best dressed girl. Brooke sounded great, but Jolene is a song not to be smiled through. I read on ew.com an article with different Dolly quotes, and her explanation of this song is a riot! All I can say is, Jolene beat the crap out of Dolly, but Dolly kept her husband. Then Dolly went home and beat him up! RIOT! A final thought on the women: for the first time last night, I really liked Carly. I thought it was her best yet. Now, just some sleeves would be nice.

On to the men! Again, like Carly, for the first time, I really liked Michael Johns. I thought it was well done and more original than usual. David Cook and Jason Castro continue to be my favorites - I like their unique sounds. If I had an ipod, I'd download Jason's "Travelin' Thru". I'm a little worried about Jason, so for the first time this season, I voted for David C. and Jason while I watched the last sobfest filled hour of The Biggest Loser (this is a topic for another time, but this round of The Bigggest Loser has been very entertaining!). That just leaves me with Little David, and I just can't find the love. He seems like a nice boy, and he has a nice voice, but I don't enjoy his performances, and his voice is not as good as they say. If he wins, it will be a travesty. And no one over 12 will buy his records.

I want the bottom 3 to be Little David, Syesha, Ramiele.
I think it will be Kristy Lee, Syesha, Ramiele.
I think the bodyguard will kill Syesha (YOU SHOULD HAVE PICKED A DIFFERENT SONG!).

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Recent MVPs (Most Valuable Pages)

Here are some pages I've recently completed. These first two are from the "waiting album" I've started for our baby girl. They have blog posts on them, since that has been how I've been "journaling" things.

These pages are from Max's album. We recently had the kids' pictures taken at JC Penney, and I bought extra poses of Max since there are no 3 year old portraits of him.

Here are Michael's basketball pages:

Monday, March 31, 2008

Random Thoughts Vol. 7

It's Monday again, and it's been gloomy and rainy here. But, the temperature was warmer. So, if we can get the sun to come out on a warmer temp day, we might actually have Spring arrive. We had an enjoyable weekend of not having much to do, which was refreshing after being so busy the last few weeks. I went to the crop on Friday night and got a respectable amount done. I started a new album for Max and it is current now. I did a couple of pages in Michael's album as well. I just ordered some supplies online, since I am out of tape runner and page protectors. When I'm not so lazy, I'll post a couple of pictures of pages. I also started an album to put things in to document our adoption wait. I'll post some pictures from that as well.

This weekend also gave me time to get a lot of homeschool stuff accomplished. I planned the rest of the school year, organized the homeschool table, and caught up on some record keeping. Only 38 more days of school for the Morehouse Academy, which has us finishing up during the week prior to Memorial Day. We've planned a family vacation the week of Memorial Day, so that is perfect. Making the vacation arrangements was something else we accomplished this weekend. We're going to King's Island, The Creation Museum, and Spring Mill State Park in southern Indiana.

Yesterday was the official groundbreaking for our church's new building. We stood in the wind and rain while the leaders took the ceremonial shovels of dirt from the ground. It's exciting to think about that building and that property and all that God has in store. We're blessed to be a part of it.

I'm pumped up for Dolly Parton night on American Idol tomorrow, even though it won't include Chikezie singing "9 to 5" (a CLASSIC film, by the way). I was sad to see Chikezie go, since he was way more interesting than Ramiele, Kristy, or Syeshia. I'm hoping Jason steps up his game, Little David's game continues to drop, Carly stops being so desperate to win (have fun for pete's sake), and for David Cook to continue to be interesting (regardless of whose cover of songs he chooses). All I have to say is if one of those non-interesting girls sings "I will always love you", I might throw up. Here's hoping it can be avoided!

Friday, March 28, 2008

Ready To Scrap

Tomorrow night I'm headed to a 6:00 PM - Midnight crop. I've spent tonight cropping and organizing pictures. Hopefully this will help me be efficient tomorrow and allow me plenty of freedom to talk with friends and still get something accomplished. All I have to say, is either I take too many pictures, or we're busy people. I think the latter is correct. Anyway, I'll let you know how I do, and maybe post pictures of MVPs (most valuable pages). I'll also be back to post some random thoughts (I know you're excited now!).

Monday, March 24, 2008

Random Thoughts Vol.6

Welcome to random thoughts, basically a purging of what is in my mind whether truly interesting or not. Don't you love the picture above? That would be my mouth, with my newly installed bottom braces. All I can say is that I truly hate them. My mouth is getting better - I only need wax on one side now instead of all the way across - but things are still very achy. Plus, I will occasionally spray saliva out of my mouth, which is just inconvenient. Oh well, as Ryan says, only 18 months to go!

You may have noticed that I didn't post my opinion on last week's
American Idol. The reason is that my mom always taught me if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all. So, this once I will heed my mother's advice and only say that I hope this week is better.

As far as other television viewing, Lost continues to entertain and astound me. I'll miss it while it is off for a few weeks. Even though there have been a few flawed episodes, its worst is better than most that is on network tv. I've missed the last couple of episodes of Survivor, but since I read spoilers online, I usually know pretty much what will happen anyway. Our church is starting a new sermon series using Survivor as a theme, so there are cool Survivor decorations all around. Very fun! One show I find very fun to make fun of is America's Next Top Model. Ridiculous!

This weekend we finally bought a new refrigerator. The kids are more excited than Ryan and me! They are mostly excited about it having ice and water in the door. I'm excited because we bought our old one used when we moved into this house, so it had seen better days. I was finding it funny that Michael was so interested in how much the refrigerator cost. After we left the store, Michael asked Ryan how much it cost, and when Ryan told him, Michael asked, "How much money do you have left?" Then we had to explain the whole working for a living, saving money, blah, blah, blah. It is funny how their minds work!

While we were at Pokagon State Park last week, we stopped at the outlet mall in Fremont and as a family we picked out a snuggly blanket for our baby girl. It's one of those unguarded heart moments, but that's okay. I'm doing much better with that. I'm choosing faith, hope, and joy. Here's a picture of it. It says "butterfly kisses" on it, which reminds me of an episode of SpongeBob Squarepants, which makes me smile.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Humbled

I just wanted to take some time at the end of this sacred day to share how humbled I am by the love of God. I was reading earlier this week about Jesus being the Lamb of God, and how He was a spotless lamb, a worthy sacrifice, and how He was innocent of any sin. I am so humbled today because I am not spotless, worthy, or innocent, and I needed Jesus to take my place. Praise God for taking me "while I was still a sinner" and cleaning me up, covering my guilt and shame with His blood, and extending His worthiness to me. It's an incredible gift, an extravagant love, and I'm so thankful and grateful.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Back From Our Break

We got back yesterday from our short get-away to Pokagon State Park. We had a great time there, we always do. It was very relaxing, and it was nice because the place was practically empty. We had the pool and hot tub to ourselves, and we spent time putting puzzles together in the cozy lounge area. I personally greatly enjoyed just letting my brain shut down for a few days. This time we stayed in a suite that had a living room and separate bedroom. It was very nice to have the extra space for the kids to play. I'm so thankful that we were able to take this time and step away from our everyday lives for a short break. As always, these times when it's just the five of us are precious and special. I feel incredibly blessed to have Ryan and the kids.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Random Thoughts Vol.5

Welcome to the weekend edition of random thoughts. I decided to post a few things before our family heads out to Pokagon State Park in Angola, IN for a few days. We are all excited about a few days away and a break from the routine. So, here are my random thoughts before I head out:

*Although I'm disappointed, I'm not surprised that David Hernandez was voted off of American Idol. I think several other contestants should be quite thankful to be still going in the competition (Ramiele, Syesha, Kristy). I'm also disappointed because they are doing Beatles week again. But, it's better than Gloria Estefan week.

*All I have to say about Lost is, what in the world is going on, and WHEN in the world is it happening????

*Today we finally painted Madison's bedroom. I think it's been over 2 years since we started talking about doing it. It's a small room, so it seems like it should be pretty simple, but there's always more to it than you expect. Ryan and I are both exhausted, but her room is done (well there's still finishing touches to do). It is now a wonderful shade of pink, and it makes me want to eat cotton candy.

Have a blessed Holy Week, and I'll check in when we get back.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Encouraged To Celebrate

I've posted before about my "heart monitor", my way of protecting myself from getting hurt or disappointed through our adoption process. Recently, God spoke to me about this. For a while now, I'm been holding onto the verse, "the joy of the Lord is my strength." So, the other night I decided to look it up so I could write the verse and its reference in my notebook. Well, my guess was that it was in the Psalms, but I was wrong. It is in the book of Nehemiah, and it is the second half of a verse. It comes after the Israelite exiles have returned to Jerusalem and rebuilt the walls of the city, and the priest has read to everyone the laws given to Moses. The people had been weeping as they listened to the words of the Law. Then Nehemiah says, "Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have nothing prepared. This day is sacred to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength." It goes on to say that the people celebrated with great joy.

I was so encouraged about this, because I often really hold back from celebrating our baby girl. I try to keep my heart so closely monitored, instead of full out celebrating what I believe will happen. I want to whole heartedly believe that God will bring our baby girl to us, and excitedly anticipate it. I was explaining it to Ryan and said that it's like when the Chicago Cubs win the World Series - for fans like him and me, those victories will be super sweet because we have hung in there through some very tough times with the Cubs (we've both been fans since we were kids). But, in the midst of their run for the title, there will be bandwagon fans, who, when it seems apparent that the Cubs are going all the way, will be saying, "oh yeah, we knew they could do it!" I don't want to be a bandwagon believer - celebrating and believing once the victory is finally within reach. I want to celebrate and believe even when it seems impossible, which is where our adoption resides right now. I look around me and nothing implies that this baby will be in our house for sure in the next 2 years, if ever. Nothing except one - GOD! And what HE says, I will trust. And when He gets her here, how much sweeter it will be because we had faith all along that it would happen. Thank you, Precious Lord! I will faithfully trust, come what may!

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

American Idol - Beatles Night

Well, American Idol's Beatles Night wasn't the complete disaster I thought it would be. In fact, in some ways it was pleasantly surprising. Here's my list, starting with my favorite:

1. Chikezie - Wow, I loved it! I've not been excited about him, but I thought this was great. I hope he sticks around and we see more great stuff like this.
2. Jason & Brooke - I like the same things about them, so I'm putting them together. I just enjoy the raw, not-so-powerhouse voices they each have. Jason's wasn't the best of his, but still I really enjoyed it. Brooke is growing on me week after week. I want one or both of them to go far in the competition.
3. David Cook & Carly - They seem similar to me as well. I think they both did a great job and I enjoyed listening to them. I'm okay with either of them going far in the competition.

Note a big gap here!

4. David Hernandez & Syesha - They both sang well, but their songs and performances weren't up to par with the others. I've never been a Syesha fan, so she can go at any time, but I would like David to stay so we can see him reach his potential, but I fear it may not happen.
5. Rocker Nurse - She gets this spot because at least I can say she isn't boring. I just don't thing she can last, however, since she can't truly sing.
6. Michael & Ramiele - Neither of them have blown me away and I find them both very boring. I won't be sad to see either of them leave.
7. Kristy Lee - It was a disaster, but I'll give her this - at least she tried. She was doomed if she did and doomed if she didn't. If she would have stood up there and sang the song straight, the judges would've creamed her for it. So, I look at it as at least she tried. And, she sang it fairly well and REMEMBERED ALL THE WORDS, which is why she's in this spot and not last. She is a top candidate to leave tonight, but history shows that sometimes America comes out in full force to give the train wreck one more week. I wouldn't be surprised to see the boring and forgettable Ramiele leave tonight instead of Kristy.
8. Little David - I just feel at this point it is completely unacceptable to forget the lyrics not once, not twice, but three times. This is a young man who won the Star Search competition, and has sung on national television other times. People have been destroyed for making less egregious mistakes in the past. I doubt he'll be voted out, but he should be - he not only forgot the words, but he didn't sing well.

So, I'm not sure if I'll watch tonight's results or just wait and find out on the internet after it's over. It can be unbearable to watch 57 minutes of filler to get 3 minutes of information. Feel free to leave comments telling me how much you agree or disagree with me!